Mood stabilisers please

Well days follow each other and are certainly different.

After that day where all amazing asanas seemed to come to me, I had a horrible day. We started with our first self practice. I chose an 'evolutionary' sequence (meaning something I really don't like, i.e. back bends...). And surprisingly it went great. to the exception that all the energy locked in my heard got released (which I need), which set me up for a moody day. Besides, Shiva TOTALLY ignored me, as she went from mat to mat, and skipped me totally. So much so that at the end, as she was working on someone on the mat next to me, she said: so Franck, what did you do today? She had not looked at me at all!!! OH MY GOD that made me go crazy. I felt resentful, heartbroken and hurt the whole day. I love her so much, have so much respect for her and receive so much from her... and she doesn't seem to care. So anyway, I was moody the whole day, also because no one was expressing a fancy for me in the group, and I want to feel attractive, which I did not. So anyway, that made me even more pissed off and just made the day hell.

Even my imperfect husband could not help, though I am not an easy one to cheer when I am down. Sorry darling :)

But today I wake up, feeling better, check my email and BAM! Great news, I have been promoted to Managing Teacher in my new studio. YEAH, triple YEAH!

So just to say that one should not dwell on one's misery, cause it does not lat (generally :p).

SHIVAHOM!

Off for the second day of Sva Sadhana, Self Practice. I will be on fire, in a pool of water today.

IY