It's all over...

It's over now...

We closed this chapter in our Life yesterday. We did an improvised Kirtan as an opening to our morning practice, with you mats laid out in a mala around an altar dedicated to Ganesha. We danced, I rocked the house apparently (many people said so - I just launched my African beat moves :p) and finished in a long sweet stream of jai rade jai rade rade jai rade jai sri rade. Our inner song, the one to sing to ourselves when suffocated in a Prana-deprived environment. We create the rhythm of our lives and expand the Prana where it is lacking.

We closed the practice with 27 rounds of surya namaskar, as an offering to ourselves, our loved ones, the World and the Planet. Sweet, meditative. I was focused like I have never been in a mala of namaskars...

After some time on the beach with my buddies, we met on the grassy patch next to the bitch for some more thoughts sharing and a sweet ceremony where Shiva individually signed each one of our certificates, and placed a mala around our necks with a blessing. I miss her. I miss her energy. She rushed out, but I managed to grab a hug and tell her a sweet word. She acknowledged our connection, and I felt like crying... I miss her already so much... I know it will be a challenge to sustain that energy without her, but I must achieve it.

The day before, we had gone to the Self-Realization Fellowship Lake Shrine, opened by Paramahansa Yogananda (Autobiography of a Yogi), where the ashes of Gandhi are located. Most amazing place, in the middle of Malibu. So heavily charged with Prana and meaning. I loved it. We took this as an opportunity to reflect on our Sva Dharma (Purpose in this Life), and I identified mine. I knew already quite well what it was, but this place gave me an incredible clarity, which allowed me to firm it up and word it up. After that, we went for a most amazing hike up the mountains behind pacific palisade, for a time of reflection. We were given material to formalise our meditation into a native Indian prayer arrow. While most people decided to take it with them, I felt the urge to live it there in the mountains. I had such a deep moment, I am so grateful that Shiva planned this for us.

Finally, we went to the beach with the whole group, and had an amazing time playing with huge huge waves for an hour. Perfect end to a perfect day. Of course, by the time, I was baked like a muffin (sun burnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnt) but happy :)

And it is now all over, which is a good thing. The challenge starts now. Will I be able to sustain the Energy? Will I be able to remain truthful to the inner truth and the Sva Dharma I have become intimate with? Will I have the strength to make my mark on this world?

Now is time for a last walk on the beach to Santa Monica before I leave for the airport...

Shanti.

IY